December 22, 2011
Pre-Christmas Post
Exams ended last Friday for me, and I’ve been “recovering” since then. What’ve I done since exams have finished? Nothing. Literally nothing. Well, nothing productive anyways. My sleep schedule’s been messed up since before exams (I basically just slept when I needed to, without regard to the clock) and sad to say, I STILL havent fixed it up yet (It’s 730 am…since when was I EVER up at 730 am, huh??), but it’ll come, hopefully.
Its funny how I always go back to maple story. A few friends (the one that introduced me to the game to begin with + his friend) started playing, so I figured I’d join them. As always, its all about the bowmaster, and how to buff him, so I’ve made a mercedes to get the link skill. And I’ve been farming coins for clean slates. Its not everyday you can fix up your scrolling mistakes….if only they had clean slates for life, haha.
I remember when I told my friend Victor about changing majors, and the vehemence against the idea he had. He said I’d regret it, and as much as I hate to admit it, he’s right. I miss music. I miss being in front of the piano. When you have 6 English courses, you don’t have time to sit in front of the piano and just play, or practice, and I miss that. Every time I listen to amazing music, I feel nostalgic, and I miss the piano. Life sucks, but there’s only 4 more months of this. One more semester of 6 English courses, and I’m gradding. What comes after, I decide not to think about. I’ll deal with it as it comes.
I’m finally getting into the Christmas mood. I got a CD for Christmas last Sunday, and usually I find those a waste because I never buy CDs (as much as I hate to admit it, I download music when I listen to music, and as shocking as it might sound, I rarely listen to music, despite being a music major), but I’ve popped the CD in, and have been playing it on repeat since. It’s been the best present I’ve gotten, because it reminds me of so much of what Christmas is. The CD is Casting Crowns’ “Peace on Earth”, and the lead track, “I heard the bells” really hits home. The lyrics tell a story of Christmas coming around, as it always does, but Christmas appearing as a deception, that “peace on earth” is not real, but in the face of this doubt, the bells ring on more the loudly, bringing reassurance.
I can so relate to that. Life has been overwhelming me, and I wonder if I can even think about Christmas for what it is, and remember Jesus’ birth. This reminder has done so for me and has brought peace to me and reminded me of what Christmas is: to pay tribute to Jesus’ birth and what He’s done. I hope to be able to do that in the days to come, before Christmas. How I will do it, I’m not sure yet, but I’ll find a way.
As for what I’ll do this Christmas: Practice piano, read ahead for next semester, Charis Camp for a few days next week, and then its back to school to get started all over again.
Whoever may be reading, I wish them a peaceful, meaningful, Christmas,
~Jackk
