I havent posted here in ages…like ages. I’ve said it before, this is where I write my thoughts when I see the need to do so, but recently I’ve discovered something, something I thought everyone was able to do, but apparently not: Im able to focus and organize my thoughts in my brain without actually writing it out, meaning I havent had much to use my blog for.

With that in mind, what’s up? My 160 video (Yes, Im ACTUALLY working on it). The music’s done, the intro’s done, and those who have me on msn will see the updates in how much of the video is currently made (in seconds).

Everytime I sit down to make a video, I struggle ALOT with what Im making, as I’ve often found it so hard to make something that has value. If I wanted to, I could make your typical maple video, with the 5 minutes of action sequences, and for some time, I was really thinking about doing that, similar to what I did for portions of my 120 video. However, the more I thought of it, the more pointless it seemed; the more it seemed as if Im better than that, that doing such a thing would be a disappointment to G4 (whom, to this day, even if we havent talked in ages, I still HIGHLY respect).

I watched my 120 and 70 videos again the other day, and the first thought that came through was “wow, they’re horrible”…yet so many people still like them. It makes me wonder, what I can do if I were to make a REAL video worthy of all my efforts. That is what Im working towards now. G4 has always mentioned that my music is my video’s “saving grace” and while I should take that as a compliment as a musician, I dont want it to be so. I want to be an all around director who produces videos (and really, many of the truly talented directors have disappeared).

I pulled up his article on my 70 video on empathy, and it’s amazed me how much I’ve forgotten from there, how much more I understand the article now than when I read it a year ago. What am I able to make? What am I able to present? Time will tell, I suppose, and for the audience who’ve waited a year and a half for this trilogy finale (I was thinking 120 video last February, lol), you’ll finally see something, something that not only has meaning to me, but something that has meaning to you.

After reading G4’s article again, I realized that an action sequence isnt what Im looking for, but something with more meaning. How will I get there? I have no idea. However, I have discovered a treasure mine in ElementFour, G4’s private study. I dont think he uses it anymore, but I certainly learned alot reading through there today and will think again.

This post was really to give whoever still reads here a small look into my mind and how I operate. It’s not something that can be simply explained but I’ll put it this way: I believe that my video is like a puzzle; the pieces are there already, I just have to assemble them. However, the hard part is often in the assembly of it. I feel Im struggling to find pieces that fit together, or find pieces I’ve lost, but I promise and guarantee, I’ll finish this puzzle one day, and the product will be out there for you all to see.

I’ll finish off with this note: I was just thinking the other day and finally decided to see what this “Twitter” I heard so much about was. After taking a look and seeing it, I realized something: Twitter would’ve been awesome for me: quick, simple updates for my “fans” or those who look forward to my video to see progress. I could update it with how my movie is coming along, how close to completion it is…useful information, none of that “I ate bacon and eggs for breakfast” crap. Then again, I’ve lost all the following for my videos I’ve had, so there’s nothing to really put up anymore. Times have changed, as have the way maple videos are seen and the way they are produced. We’ll just go with this abandoned blog for now and go from there.

Till then,

~Jackk