April 21, 2013
1 month ago:
“Dear Mr. Leung
February 24, 2013
I’ve been struggling.
December 31, 2012
24 hours left in 2012.
December 25, 2012
Its been a while, hasn’t it?
June 6, 2012
Yesterday, I turned 23, and the day definitely did not go as I expected it to.
May 25, 2012
Well, graduation has come and gone. I really planned on posting this earlier, but I never got around to it, but here it is:
May 10, 2012
I got a reply to my graduation application (at 10:45 pm…go figure) last night:
April 19, 2012
Well, I handed in my last exam today, and all that’s left is to wait for graduation. And, consistent with many of the assignments I’ve done this year, I pulled an all-nighter to finish it. The number of sleepless nights I had this year were significantly more than in the four previous years…combined, and thinking back, I cant help but think, “You know, grabbing an English major in one year MIGHT’ve been a mistake…”. But regardless what it was, its over, and graduation is on the horizon.
This morning as I bused to school, despite having no sleep, I just had the feeling “You know what? I’m free! I’m done!”. And after that, I thought “man, so much has happened in these 5 years. I’ve come so far, grown up so much”, and when I thought of that, I realized that that marks 5 years of this blog. Retalion was deleted right after I graduated from high school, and ALastReprise marked the beginning of both a new character but a new phase in life.
So what now? I’ve never made that last video that I’ve wanted to do, and the game’s gone to hell. However, regardless of that, I still want to put some finality on it. So what will happen? I’ve wanted to finish this last video for years. I’ve said I was going to do it for years, and no results have been produced. That being said, we will see.
How things change, yet how they stay the same.
March 21, 2012
I have 6 papers, 1 assignment and 2 presentations, not to mention 4 papers due this week (Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday x2), and I have this seemingly random urge to go and improvise on the piano.
…What is wrong with me?
March 14, 2012
I haven’t cried since I was 15, but I found tears flowing down yesterday. A friend of mine is on her third fight with cancer, and we gathered together to pray for her. She’s been in my prayers for the last while, and I always found it hard to pray for her. On one hand, I’ve learned to pray for God’s will, not for what we want, but for what He wants, and for all my life, I’ve found enough faith for that. Uncertain future? If its your will, God. Problems within my family? I give it to you. Money problems? I believe you’ll take care of it, God. But when it comes to a friend’s life, it’s oh so hard to pray for that. Its oh so hard to pray for God’s will when you know that God’s will might take her home. It is this incident that has really given me a new understanding of what Jesus felt when he prayed at the Garden of Gethsemane, as its just soo hard to pray that. In the end, it really DOES take a level of unquestioning obedience to pray that, because it really DOESNT make sense…and it’s something I’ve learned through praying for this friend.
Her bone marrow transplant surgery was supposed to be today at 4, and when I got an email at 4:30, I really thought the worst had happened, but it turns out it was only a facebook notification to let me know that the surgery’s been delayed till 10.
More time to pray, more time to trust God. More time for God’s glory to come through, no matter what happens. And more prayers for strength, courage, and her family, as they haven’t believed yet.